This is an excerpt from my prayer journal and my heart, it is my goal to be completely transparent with you, knowing that several of you are feeling the same things as me.
I don’t know. I just don’t know. I don’t know what I’m suppose to do with my life. I don’t know what my purpose is. Some days it seems so clear, and others I’m in a complete fog. God, how will you use me? I don’t know if I’m shining your light bright enough, how can I reflect you?
Please show me how to be your servant. Give me situations that I can show people your love, and Lord please give me strength to speak up and speak truth in these moments. Guide my feet today, soften my hard hard heart today.
Lord I know you have used prostitutes, tax collectors, murderers and the most lost but beautiful people to work in your kingdom. More importantly I know that you LOVE even the least of these.
God use me! Use me like you used them.
In all of my unsureness, reassure me, that I am yours, that I have a purpose.
When I do see your purpose for me, help me to follow your plan, help me not to be selfish and question your ways vs. mine. Let me know wholeheartedly your way is the best way and the only way.
Lord, I need you. I don’t always know what I’m doing, but I’m putting my faith in you to show me.
Thank you for your love, for your life.